I Have no Idea Where this Will Go (Which Turned into a Conversation of Home)

Hello readers.

Once more, I'm making a late (or early, depending on your point of view) post.

This one shall not be some kind of movie review, but mostly just a talk about what's been going on with me at the moment. I apologize in advance to anyone who finds this insanely annoying, seeing as, just as the title tells, I don't know what I'll be writing about.

I have spent the last week in the care of my cousin whilst my mother has been on adventures in Oregon. Oregon, where it's nice and cool (though windy). Her vacation made me think of how much I would rather be somewhere else than here. I've always felt like that, I suppose. Of course, living in a desert will make anyone pray for grass and flowers that don't die.

Okay, we have bother of those. But I apparently can't keep them alive.

Anyway, the thoughts of roaming from home brought up the thoughts of where I would go if I could leave.

London is the first to come to mind, but it's so far. Oregon, where my mother has been, has been the second thought. That is a much more plausible option.

But, ever thinking of the consequences of my actions, I think of everyone I have here. All of my friends and family and the people who mean the most to me. I used to be really scared of people outside of my circle, and now I'm pretty outgoing at times, which is a change. I wonder if this is because I've adjusted to where I am and I have found a nice little hole that I'm comfortable in.

So, then another question arises. Will I be this comfortable in another place? Without something familiar, what will I lose?

I think this is another part of growing up: growing out. I fear the end of my high school career, even though being a teacher means that my career in school shall never end. I fear this separation. I mean, for someone with the teetering instabilities that I've been given, separation isn't exactly a good idea.

Oh well, the future is...well, away from me at the moment. So I'll just wait and live as I am now. Just focus on acting, teaching and living.

As someone very dear to me told me: If I can't deal with being away from home, I'll have to bring someone with me.

Currently loving Amanda Palmer,
Alice

Parting words of unrelated wisdom:

Slender Man = Creepy.

More Parting words of unrelated wisdom:

I did find a Lotso Huggin Bear. And he does smell like strawberries. And I was happy.